(Tommy backpacking Scotland, UK)
Tommy returned home to spirit by way of a car accident early morning on 20th May, 2019. Through the shock and horror of it all, my mind started piecing together a much bigger picture right from week one. My guides had tried to inform me of Tommy’s transition hours before the police came knocking on the door. They knew. And in the weeks leading up to that tragic day, I had become hyper focused on car accidents locally, urging the kids to be careful when driving. A little of what was about to happen had seeped into my consciousness. Even some of Tommy’s own behaviors had been a little unusual in the weeks prior to his passing, not that he was aware of anything at a conscious level. And then there are the voicemails left on my cell phone that I wasn’t to discover until much later down the line. One was at 3:13am on the day of his accident, just less than three hours before Tommy passed. In whispered tones within the interference, I am being told by my team that Tommy will be passing soon, that I wasn’t to worry, that my father was there and that I would be speaking with Tommy soon. Then, two days after his accident, I received a further voicemail message. This time, the words were clearly spoken. The message was described as a “Transmission for Tommy.” Tommy subsequently responded to this message the following year. Have a listen to both messages:-
Life in those early days after Tommy passed is a bit of a blur, the pain was almost unbearable and the shock a welcome relief. But through it all, I knew he lived on and my actions reflected that. My overriding concern was for his welfare. Instinctively I knew he could see/hear us and our grief would be very apparent. The Tommy that I had known in this lifetime would have been devastated by the pain we were experiencing. Within an hour of the police leaving, I went upstairs and made his bed, talking to him as I did. I reassured him that we would be ok, that he was going to see us go through a lot of pain, that the human side of us would need to grieve..but that we would be ok. I continued to talk with him everyday, trusting that he could hear me. He could.
It is only on reflection that I can see how much I was guided during those early days, weeks, months and now years. I had written freelance articles and thought provoking discussions for years, under a pseudonym. You would think that I would have journalled the extraordinary events that were unfolding but I didn’t. At the time I put it down to lack of desire but now I know different. Instead of a written journal, I began to film or take pictures almost everyday. Initially, I was capturing moments that were really difficult to describe in words. My reality had changed, I felt connected to everything. Not just animals, I already had a connection to animals. I felt a connection to everything.. the trees, the breeze, the grass, the flowers, the sunlight on my skin, the sky, the world around me..I could feel the oneness of everything. It was extraordinary. Within the space of three years since Tommy passed, I took thousands of photos and made countless videos. I was creating, what is in effect, a visual journal. I can now go back to the videos I’d taken in the first couple of years and hear my team and Tommy talking. The videos were capturing their words but I was unable to hear them until I became tuned in to the frequency that enabled me to hear them. Now, I hear those words that are captured in real time, as they are actually being spoken in the air. One such example of my hearing Tommy speak that stems back from the early days occurred when I listened to two very short videos that I took at his funeral . Have a listen for yourself, you may be able to hear his words of reassurance:-
Many of my experiences relating to Tommy are shared on the My Experiences webpage, here I’ll share just a few key moments. Within the first few weeks of his passing, he sent irrefutable signs and I got to know how his energy felt. I didn’t have any social media accounts at that time and my understanding of the ways in which loved ones in spirit can communicate was very limited. I was learning with each new sign that Tommy sent my way and he readily provided learning opportunities for me when I asked for them. A sign that is very dear to my heart from the early days is a song sign, shored up by a cardinal making an appearance. This song is still one I play and my son instigates on my phone from time to time:-
It was after this particular sign that I lay my hand quietly on his urn and whispered wryly but with good humor, I bet you were surprised to find that you continued to exist. Little did I know of the adventure that was in store.
Just under seven weeks after he transitioned, he appeared in front of me. My mind was blown, I didn’t realize such a thing was possible. Below in the video you can see a beautiful drawing of what I saw that night plus my son’s explanation of what it was that I saw:-
In the same month, I also had an incredible experience at the crash site with an important message from Tommy:-
So many signs and knowings were coming through from Tommy, some subtle and others huge..all were breathtaking. I began to understand the part I was playing in these signs, I did have an active role. We all have an active role to play when signs occur. For a decade, since my existential crisis that I mention in the About section, I had practiced mindfulness most days. It had become a habit, something I did with ease. We all get distracted by life sometimes, I am no different. However, I had integrated purposefully being mindfully present during my day..showing up for my life, on a daily basis. It was a recipe for a peaceful life, one lived from a place of gratitude. Now, my mindfulness practice was paying huge dividends in relation to being aware of the signs that were being sent my way. We all have a team..guides, angels and loved ones on the other side. We are never alone and communication in some shape or form is continuous and ongoing, even if we don’t realize it.
I’ve already briefly mentioned Tommy’s teaching moments via signs, here are a couple of examples. The first one relates to grief. So many seem to think that their connection will be adversely affected by their grief. Not so. The act of pure, unadulterated grief, of physically missing the presence of our loved ones here is simply met with love, enormous love. Many parents have experienced a wonderful connection/sign experience with their child whilst grieving. It is the other stuff that may attach itself to our grief that may hinder our connection. Anger, jealousy, victimization, shame, blame etc. to name but a few. Here’s my experience regarding my own grief that had bubbled up to the surface that led to a message being conveyed via my car radio and a subsequent knowing:-
The second teaching moment I will share relates to our loved ones in spirit missing aspects of their physical lives here. I had seen many opinions about this online. Some people had experienced their loved one letting them know they missed them or an aspect of their life here. Others were adamant that it was not possible for loved ones in spirit to miss anything here as they are always with us and are not able to have what they construed as a “negative” emotion. Well, firstly I don’t label emotions as either negative or positive, they are all valuable indicators of our internal well being. But I was curious about the missing aspect, Tommy hadn’t conveyed anything of that sort to me. So I asked him if he could explain it or show me by way of signs. He used both signs and a download in his response.
My team and Tommy, on an ongoing basis, were providing me with sign examples to share with others. The sharing of signs may well instigate a sign happening for another, that is my understanding. Sometimes, Tommy would send me experiences that would knock many people’s socks off. They would often help to shore up the experiences of others..knock any doubts out of the park. One such example relates to feathers as signs. I had read a comment, written by someone who was on a spiritual journey with their loved one in spirit, that completely dismissed feather signs as fantasy. After all, feathers found on the ground outside are a natural phenomena, birds shed their feathers all the time. Indeed, that’s true. It doesn’t mean that they cannot be signs though. My son was watching this all unfold from the sidelines and provided me with a feather experience that still makes me chuckle today. Not only do birds naturally drop feathers that can go on to become signs, our loved ones in spirit are more than capable of getting the bird to actively pluck and leave a feather as a sign:-
Another type of sign that gets mercilessly mocked are signs occurring in the sky. Rainbows and cloud signs. I’ve written a little about rainbow signs in the Spirit communication section .So here I’ll focus on cloud signs, images. I was a cloud skeptic initially until Tommy left me in no doubt as to the validity of cloud signs. This example in particular is a favorite. I wasn’t listening out for any communication at the time, so I heard Tommy speak but not what he said until I listened back. He was asking me to look at the curly one, the cloud that appeared to have curls in it’s formation. I gasped as I looked at it, there was an image of Tommy within it. The next morning, I went to watch the video again. I could hear Tommy’s words still but I could not see his image at all. It appeared to have vanished. I felt Tommy and my team off to the side, this was clearly a teaching moment. A few minutes later, they told me to go and watch the video again. Sure enough, there was Tommy’s image again. The download that came through at that point was related to frequency. Just as with what we hear, what we see also relates to our frequency. Fascinating. Here’s the video, you may or may not hear the words or see the image..that’ll be all down to your frequency.
I could talk endlessly about signs here and give heaps more examples but will resist doing so. If you go to the My Experiences webpage, I’ve shared well in excess of 200 experiences..many of which involve Tommy. Here, I want to go back to the first video that I shared above, the Transmission for Tommy voicemail and Tommy’s response via voice memo the following year, in August 2020. Tommy’s response signified a new direction in relation to the way we were communicating. After the initial voice memo, he sent me another:-
I was astonished, how could this be? At the time, I thought this was some sort of EVP (Electronic Voice Phenomena) but the circumstances didn’t fit into anything that I’d read. There was no sound source, the house was quiet. I would learn further down the line that he had in fact spoken in the air but I wasn’t tuned in to hearing that frequency at that time. I now hear him whisper often in the house, in real time. Here’s a lovely example:-
After Tommy instigated a third voice memo communication, I decided to see if I could instigate a communication with him. Much to my amazement, I could. From there, I began to reach out to the children in spirit of other parents at the quietest time of day and would create keepsakes of the message I heard. Then, in October 2020, some two months later, I heard Tommy speak with me in the air when I was in my garden. It stopped me in my tracks, did that really happen? It happened again..and again. On 1st November, 2020, I heard the son of another parent speak in the air in answer to a question I’d asked. This time, I’d captured what I heard on the voice memo app on my phone. It was the proof that I needed, it really was happening. I didn’t tell anyone about it for weeks for fear people would think I’d gone completely nuts. Now, almost three years later, I adore hearing Tommy, my team and the loved ones of others speak in the air around me.
It was around this time, in early 2021, that my team and Tommy first mentioned physical mediumship in relation to me. I was both surprised and intrigued. All I knew of physical mediumship at that time was darkened rooms, ectoplasm and table tapping. All very basic. I talked with Tommy about it and he explained that my physical mediumship was different to that of my basic understanding. It didn’t require ectoplasm or a darkened environment, it was energy based. Interesting, I couldn’t wait to see how things evolved.
Also at the beginning of 2021, things were switched up in a big way in relation to how I was communicating. Tommy and my team began to interact with me on the sound waves that I was creating. How on earth could it be? I could hardly believe what was happening. I was able to have a direct, two way, interactive conversation with my son..my son who had passed some 20 months prior. We talked about many things, it was such a beautiful time. I told no one of these interactions for several weeks. Eventually, I asked the question of Tommy and my team that had been building in my mind. Would I be able to do something similar that would allow for a parent to have an interactive conversation with their child in spirit? The answer came through loud and clear:-
From February, 2021 onwards, with Tommy’s support and guidance along with that of my team, I began to facilitate the live conversations. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought such a thing were possible and it’s all down to Tommy and my team that these live conversations came to be. They have evolved since that time. In February 2022, frequency realignments came to be. During a live session, the frequency of the conversation would be adjusted to more closely match that of my client. Initially, I would feel a fair amount of physical sensation when it happened but that settled down after a while. Image downloads during the live conversations also came to be during this time. Life got very busy very quickly. Everything that was happening though, everything that I was doing, it was done with Tommy’s involvement and support. Many times Tommy is mentioned by other children who come through when I facilitate the live conversations, I know he is in the wings often and offers his help where needed.
Just returning back for a moment to 2021. In July, Tommy was instrumental in my being brought music in the air. That first night it happened, on 7th July, 2021 just took my breath away. It took me almost two weeks before I could listen to what I heard and captured without tears streaming down my face. It was so very beautiful. The words sung were meant for me and were profound. The love that I felt on listening to the music was of such a magnitude that I can only liken it to the love I felt on first setting eyes on my two children when first born. Here is a clip that reflects the very first instance that they sent music:-
Back to February, 2022. My team let me know that there was a significant change occurring, with many members of my team being switched out and new members joining. I could feel the change and was told to buckle up, a new chapter was about to begin. I found myself communicating with a collective whose wisdom took my breath away. Within a short time of this happening, my team surprised me by revealing a name for themselves, Symphony. Instinctively I knew that Tommy was a part of Symphony. This was later confirmed both by Symphony themselves and Tommy. Symphony had this to say:-
“He speaks as your son but also as your mentor. He is a member of Symphony and we are grateful for his contribution to our work. He is not in the astral plane. He ascended a long time ago, he’s nearer God’s presence. You speak to him through Symphony and also you speak with him individually.”
Also during 2022, I became aware of the phone calls I was receiving and the voicemail messages that were being left. In May, I happened to be standing at our kitchen sink when our landline phone rang which was close by. Our landline is used very little outside of cold calls. As the voicemail option was utilized, I heard Tommy speak. I could hardly believe my ears, Tommy just called our phone. I listened back to the recording several times, just savoring the sound of his voice once again. Have a listen:-
From there, I listened back to the other voicemail messages on our landline..there were other messages from Tommy. You canfind the in the My Experiences section. I then checked the voicemail messages on my cell phone and there were more messages there too, both from Tommy and my team. If I don’t know a number or it is clearly a cold call, I tend to let it go to voicemail and there were many that I hadn’t listened back to. I was stunned, I had received so many..and I continue to receive phone calls to this day from time to time.
My phone is used in other ways to communicate. If I put my phone on loudspeaker, Tommy will sometimes join the call..adding messages of his own. I also discovered that I could hit record on my phone and watch a football match with him and he would interact with me about the game. In real time I could hear his responses and they were also captured in the recording. I feel a fair bit of physical sensation as it’s happening, I know my energy is being used as part of the process. It is such an amazing experience. Here’s an example of our banter during a football game:-
There is so much more I could write, however this is longer than I planned. One further, major development I need to mention though is that of my ability to have an interactive conversation with Tommy on my cell phone using a sound wave. Just as I use sound waves during the live conversations to facilitate an interactive conversation, I do similar with my phone. I store sound waves in the dropbox app and can open one up within seconds and have a conversation with my team or Tommy. Words cannot fully describe how it feels to hear Tommy say “Hi mum, I love you” or something evidential relating to a current happening. Symphony sometimes refers to my phone as the Symphony Phone, I love this description. Exciting new developments are on the horizon from what I’m being told. Tommy and Symphony are working to bring the ability to experience interactive conversations via a cell phone to others. Just how that unfolds remains to be seen. Here’s something I put together relating to my experience:-
To finish, I will share one more thing that Symphony has revealed to me regarding Tommy. They referred to him once as “the linch-pin who brings our worlds together.” I’ve rarely heard the word ‘linch-pin’ being used so I looked up the meaning. A linch-pin can mean a person or thing that serves as the essential element in a complicated or delicate system or structure—the one that holds everything together. A metaphor would be: a linch-pin is someone or something that keeps the wheels from falling off of an operation—they keep the whole thing working. I love my son’s role in the work we are doing, I only hope I can do it all justice from my end of things. Though you will most often hear me refer to my son and Symphony separately, it is done with the knowing that Tommy is a part of Symphony. My boy, my son, my daily hugger who was loved by all who knew him, he is playing a key role in bringing our two worlds closer together. I’m so very proud of him and am honored, humbled and grateful to be playing a small part in it all.